THE GIRL
Monday, January 09, 2006
my life is just a mess. they don't want to give me money yet they dont want me to work. what the fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck! *screams* *cries*
i need to get a hold if myslef. i need to be ignorant about the things happening around me and just put up a show. i feel like i am in the sept 11 th incident or the tsunami. where i have lost someone but instead if losing that someone so close to heart, i have lost my sanity, my soul, my spirit. there's no bright side for me to turn to, i am surrounded by total darkness. i feel cold and alone. i can feel that this year is gonna be horrible, the beginning of the year has already been ruined. how could this happen to me? i mean everyone makes me mistakes. but why is everyone pointing their finger at me,i know i wasted a year, i wasted money. you cant expect me to decide what i want to do in the future at the age of 16. my perceptions of life changes when i see the world. daddy told me that your career is built in you since u were young. just fuck offfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff. my aim in life is to die you!