THE GIRL
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
i'm so freaking piss. who the does she think she is that stupid bitch. telling me that i'm her best friend. haha. big joke.
NICOLE KATHY ESTROP LI HE= acts nice to guys, exaggerates a lot, makes her life seem so complicated, makes use of her girl friends then says that she was never part of the group and adds that she actually doesnt really like the group even after all the have done was to encourage her to study, cannot except anything negative ppl say. gorges on food and complains that she's fat after that thinking that she can just put on weight after a meal.fickle minded.cannot keep secrets.pretends to be nice to everyone eventhough she actually cannot stand them. loves the attention given by guys. oh yeah and when she doesnt get her way she has these moods then in a fit of anger goes round bitching about you to everyone. BEWARE OF THE DEVIL! looks can be deceiving.
i seriously dont know why i bothered so much. why i tried to influence? why i tried to talk to her? did it benefit her or am i at the losing end? but i dun think so...bleah!
i really dont know what's wrong with her. the reason why i dun think i should disclose her name is because i dont wanna be fake no more. i have learnt to adapt this new attitude that i learnt from a good friend (you know who you are) that if u dun like someone just show it. no point hiding to sustain a damn neutral friendship with everyone. if u actually take a look at reality everything is actually fake and it depends to what extent. i have been really trying very hard not to look on the bad points of ppl and just except who they are and try to live with it. but even when u try to be nice. they just take advantage thinking that you would have the guts to stand firm. well hello! if i dont like you. too bad. that's my problem. if you dont like me. that's yours. dont come calling me and asking me if i have a problem with you and your friends. and you wanna know the truth. YES MS TAN I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH YOU!*rolls eyes* (learnt the action from her cos she's damn good at it=her pastime). what's with you sticking your nose in my life. i'm fucking happy that it's just another 3 weeks and i wouldnt have to see your face ever again. that is what i look forward to most. really wish you would stop acting like the world owes you a living. no ones perfect and neither are you. oh wait.l. i'm so sorry . i forgot. you have the most real friends and perfect relationship in this whole world. sorry your highness.
i read this from a friend's journal that everyone is entiltled to their own opinions. so if i dont like your face so be it. what do u expect me to do for u. hear all that you wanna hear. we'll see how it benefits you.
so now say what you wanna say. although i may get affected i know that i can always turn to my group of friends who have learnt to accept me and who have been there for me through thick and thin eventhough we had our own disputes and cold wars. friendship to us seems more real as we are able tor TRY to accept one another and advise and at the same time put aside our differences.
i think i need to thank these people for being by my side in whatever situation.
rachel.elie.tasha.audrey.sarah.judy.cherm.fera.cheryl.rianne-these ppl have made an impact in my life and made me realise that friends do exist eventhough it may not be perfect. love ya'll
think wad u wanna think abt what i have written. cos i dun fucking care! hardihar!