THE GIRL
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
so i missed college algebra again.. i am suffering from very very bad cramps and cold sweat. i just have so much to do. i don't know where to start. i feel so disorientated. but i guees that's life isn't it? everything just hits you at the same time which puts you in a big mess. i especially hate it when things have been planned and then other responsibilities just have to interfere. i think you should get the idea of what i am talking abt.
so i will be going the doctor in a while. then i guess i'll just head down to school to study. my book review is due on thursday and i have a bio test on that day too and a maths test the next day.. screeeeeeeew it man....
Monday, September 26, 2005
look at the damn time now and i am still awake doing my assignment
Friday, September 23, 2005
i am so tired.. today college algebra is just gonna make me depressed den i will be awarded at stef's place for lunch den maebe some booze tonight. mummy's going to bintan. looks like i am left with that man! eeeeeew. good day folks. may everyone's day be better than mine.
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
so i havent exactly been myself the past few days. the need for the consumption of alcohol seems to be increasing. i find happiness when i drink and start lauging nonstop till i reach home and knock out. am i an alcoholic? i just love drinking and drinking. i'll drown myself with anything till i K.O. i wanna drink and puke. eeeww
i finally got my hair rebonded yesterday. and i kinda hinted to mummy that i would rather go for michael buble's concert den Quidam. i really was just pushing my luck... bleah.. anyway. mummy called when i was in town today and told me she got the tickets to michael buble for me on the 10th of oct. i thought she would get the cheapo tickets kind cos mummy is not really the kind who will pay a lot for a concert. BUT she bought he most expensive...$125.. of mr buble. please take me home. hehe. and to top it of... she heard my conversation over the phone abt stomp... hehe... looks like i'll be going for that too next wed.. yay! i love mummy!
looks like i have to get started on my assignments. i havent even finished the book.. kill me kill me kill me.
Friday, September 16, 2005
i was devastated todae when i found out i flunked my math test
someone please whack me now. no doubt i was late for the paper. but how could i fail it? but it's okae. this has motivated me to study harder. since cherm has started work and mr wong is in camp 3/4 of the time till he gets night's out...i have no excuse to have no time for study. its time to pull up my socks.
i'm just lying on my bed now.. taking a good rest before i head the books. den tonight i shall reward myself with a clubbing session. *skips* so yesterdae... mr wong booked out and spent the evening with me around my areas. den cherm came. we crapped and played my childish games. i am so short whenever i am with those two.. mr wong is 180+++ and cherm is 166. i am a freaking 163.. shortay. but its okae. warm air rises and cool air sinks. ..bleah. he wun be meeting me todae cos he's going to visit his "wife" at the driving centre. spend a whole 4 hours there. without me around. BOOOOOO!!!!. but at least i have my lesbian partner around. cherm the sperm. i love ya!!!!
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
i am so tired. headache. i'm gonna see mr wong tomorrow. we're going hp shopping... for him.
den we'll do shopping for me after.hehe=) right?
Friday, September 09, 2005
chanel just dyed cherm's hair. haha. we were suppose to spend the whole day shopping. but i ended up not going to school. so i have been slacking at home till now. we'll be going to town shortly and may end up clubbing tonight. pretty excited. i havent danced in a while.
i dunno why but i am having a bit of a headache and i'm a little tired actually. watching daddy daycare now and it kinda makes me smile all the time. the kids are just so adorable. this reminds me of what happened yesterdae on what happened on the train ride home. almost half the cabin were laughing with us or maybe at us. this is crazy..
Thursday, September 08, 2005
so it was school to start my day then to the airport with collette to send u.richard off. bugis for dinner and ther trained home with cherm. parco is having some amazing thailand roadshow. i bought a flower clip. cos i always wanted one.. besides it was cheap.
you see that blue black on my arm. it happened because i tried to squeeze a pimple right at the spot. what the hell is wrong with my skin now. i miyself cant explain. i know my complexion has gotten worst. i am trying to improve it by using lesser make up and watching my diet super closely. i guess i just had a change in my lifestyle and my body is getting use to it or maybe it's just that i need to change my facial wash.
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
there's just some things in life you just got to get use to. but sometimes it's difficult. i really hate my father and i'll never forgive him at all. he picks with aunty florna, me and always hurts mum. i give up really! i wish the worst for him
Monday, September 05, 2005
i felt so accomplished yesterdae. it has been such a long time since i sat down and really studied. i did three math topics yesterdae and actually understood it. i like the feeling. woohoo. all thanks to audrey for her inspirational talks.
i dont know why but lately i have been suffering from insomnia attacks again. i look forward to the weekends, especially sundays so that i can catch up on sleep in order to have a good start to my week. it's not that i dont feel tired which is stopping me from sleeping. it's more of i just keep thinking and thinking. there's so many things to think about now a days. there's always the "what if, what if?"
it's sad sometimes to find out that the person u trust the most and open up to the most change and tells u something that hits you right there. but we all have to give and take. no one is perfect. we just gotta pick ourselves up and put on a smile. pretend that everything is okae in order not to ruin the friendship. i hate facing the unexpected. you know what i mean? but i am okae now. i just needed some time. it still hurts but....... i cant do no thing about it
Sunday, September 04, 2005
one tough week= an experience. a journey. a new level of thinking
i just had a1.5 hour talk with mummy
i feel like i've taken a whole load of me
i am proud of how i am
i believe i can