THE GIRL
Thursday, March 31, 2005
okae training was good
so was ba chor mee after that
now i'm just too tired
slept at 6.30am
and i have class tomorrow at 10am
received my letter from SP today
gonna do a medical check up
which i think ...no cigs...
damn my hair
k nite...
oh sexy boy. i wanna fly there with you. *smiles*
Wednesday, March 30, 2005
my cramps is killing me...*cries*
and i cant sleep
yong loves the humorous me!
i'm having cramps. it hurts so so much...
*cries*
yong loves the humorous me!
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
so i cant slp
i shall just blog. dunno wads wrong with me. been feeling so down. why am i feeling lonely when there are so many ppl around me? i think i'm going crazy. the lonliness is the cause of my insanity. no matter how much ppl reassure me i just feel crappy.
when they call me i just dun feel like talking to them. i just dun wanna see anyone. i dun wanna be questioned. dun ask me hows my day or wads wrong with you. u may be doing it because u think ur suppose to do as a friend. its not like u actually care. fuck fuck fuck.
wad the fucking hell is wrong with me. i'm paranoid. i wanna scream. i wann yank my hair out.
i wanna cry and vomit . i wanna just slp and never open my eyes again.
my lonliness is suicidal!
Monday, March 28, 2005
This is what it boils down to... me and tp business...my 1st choice...i can't believe i will be in the same course as chanel and co. man! am i gonna suffer...they r gonna make my life hell just like they did in sec 1/5...i dunno what's with my luck.... but then where else will i go if i didn't go to tp? its so contradicting... whether to be happy or sad...
okae so that was saed by my ex classmate meiying. i dun remember doing anything to her.
i mean although i came from a group that was rather loud and sometimes i agree we can be annoying.. haha... but that was in sec one la. pls.... aiyo.....
am i really that bad a person that everyone has this kinda impression of me .... wtf
Your Brain is 80.00% Female, 20.00% Male
Your brain leans female
You think with your heart, not your head
Sweet and considerate, you are a giver
But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!What Gender Is Your Brain?
yes i'm bored.... shitt fuck
Sunday, March 27, 2005
i never noticed how dark and long his eyelashes were till today
they're long and thick that i can see at a diagonal distance of abt 4m. cool
slept the whole day. went to church and came home. ate. satwith the family and now just blogging
i'm feeling so lethargic today. feeling sick and crappy
no mood
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
SP architecture here i come!
do u like chicken wings? haha
Sunday, March 20, 2005
i have decided.
since my friends are gonna be busy at school and work.
i'm gonna renew my gym membership.
that should keep me occupied.
this sucks
posting is coming out on tuesday and they start school on wednesday
shitt fuck mann
i have a new wish list... i think there's something wrong with me todae. i feel like fighting with everyone. i'm irritated. i'm tired but i cant slp. i wanna just stone. i'm feeling crapy and ugly (which i know i am). i feel insecure. i feel lonely. i wanna get pissed drunk and cry non-stop. i just wanna be alone so leave me alone
Thursday, March 17, 2005
its the end.
it came and left just like that.
but who cares.
i'm good.
plenty plenty out there.
movie with calista and cherm, den its clubbing time. i wanna dance the night away. woohoo.
i start work early tomorrow den school at night. i dunno how am i gonna do it. but i am.
lets groove~ =)
Monday, March 14, 2005
you make me wanna hold u tight
you make me wanna kill you
you make me wanna kiss you
you make me wanna smile
you make me wanna laugh
you make me wanna bite you
being with you just makes me so complete.. and i love it
Sunday, March 13, 2005
it's only the beginning
and i have so much feelings
i dun wanna be possessive
but i cant help it.
when i'm possessive i feel like shit
i dont like you to be high
i dont like you to be there 3times a week
i dont like your late nights
not without me.
can u pls answer me.
i wanna know
i dont like these games anymore
i'm not gonna cry
not anymore
Saturday, March 12, 2005
his messages make me smile
his voice soothes me.
i yearn to see him.
sigh.
i wanna see him now.
he's quiet in his shell.
i don't wanna get too involve
i hate the feeling when i'm alone
in need of his comfort
he is not obliged to anything.
not just yet.
i hope *smile*
you make me feel oh so special
Thursday, March 10, 2005
oh stranger
oh stranger
i'm sorry. i didnt mean wad i saed.
please forgive me.
have the same impression u did before all this shit happened
i'm sorry
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
got up this morning in shock as i was suppose to meet cherm at 1 at bedok. but of course. she wasnt up herself.
i cant go on like this. stating awake till the wee hours of the morning and getting up in the afternoon. i seriously need a lifestyle makeover.
so we went to the gym then headed down to ps for the job interview. then landed up at parkway to meet nigel. stayed and saw a few ppl i havent seen in a while. just got home not too long ago too.
i seriously wonder why people notice the things that i do. even the way i speak or dress. and the thing is that they make it sound like as though its hysterical or wonder why am i speaking like that. i cant be wad everyone wants me to be. i dun wanna look like a clown. i just get so irritated.
i know your a good friend. but i have a sensative side too. so sorry
i contemplate my fate
where would i be next?
what situation would i be in?
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
I'm helpless in that knowledge where i don't know where life is going to take me. Like a sledgehammer to my face, that familiar feeling of numbness hits me in the face espescially when i wake up every morning. Nothing a cold shower can't do to sober me up although most of the times the battle is where i find the strength to pull myself out of bed.
i could struggle for the very best. i could earn lots of money & be really rich. i could be famous. i could listen to the voice inside my head. i could be whatever i want. i could be a superstar designer. i could be a coporate bigwig riding the corporate ladder to success. i could be a struggling musician. i could be superstar DJ. i could whore myself for the love of money. i could sit myself back & watch my life crumble around me.
Critical aclaim isn't all that's cracked up to be. Fame can be a double edged sword. And i've discovered that money doesn't seem to satisfiy for long.Don't get me wrong, i'm living the life - if my description fits yours - & i'm thankful. But i can't rid myself of the burning naseau i have in my stomach... that everything is pointless. Of meaningless chasing after the wind.i'm helpless in the knowledge that i don't have all the answers. Faith is all i have & trust... is all that's slipping away.
Rescue me.
this really made me think/ i'm amazed. i wanna be just like you
Sunday, March 06, 2005
the best days with mummy...and her money of course
+advance professional make up and hairstyling diploma
+california barbie
+clothes for my barbie
+2 bottoms from dorothy perkins
+oasics shorts
+brassssss
i still wanna shop. i wanna get......'
+pro make up kit=$1200
+gym bag from nike
+nike dunks
+sandals
+birkies
+hand bag
+bling bling looped earings
+belt and top from dorothy perkins
Friday, March 04, 2005
tell me why am i feelin this
crappy.
i dun feel like being around anyone
i wanna be left alone
just dun talk to me for a while
do that if u really care
i need to clear my mind
calm down
dun question me cos i hate it
you may think that its an act of concern
but ur just making it worst
cos ur making me think
ps. stop spreading shitt. cant u have guys as friends. wtf!
cheerleading at TJC was quite alright today. i thought it was at TPJC thats why i went to meet nigel at temasek poly. i'm a loser la.
i'm quite rusty actually.oh well. one of t he girls fell on me today and i cut my lower lip. now my lip is like swollen. its ugly. can u imagin if i had like botox or something, my lip will be disfigured. eeew!. yeah.. so next training will be on monday! so fun so fun.
yesterdae's movie marathon was rather successful. cherm rach and i ate plenty plenty chips... haha.. and chanel obviously fell off to sleep half way through "the notebook". bleah..
damn worried abt JAE man. cant seem to log onto the damn server...shitt my future mann!
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
i'm feeling crappy. depressed. dumb. stupid.lonely.lame. retarded and WEAK!